Paris Jackson gave a candid interview to her longtime friend Willow Smith in an episode of Red Table Talk on Facebook that was posted Wednesday.
The 23-year-old actress and musician discussed a variety of sensitive topics with Willow, 20, including mental health issues, suicide attempts, confidentiality issues, betrayal and revealing her religious family.
“Some of my family I talk to about it openly, some of my family don’t,” she said of revealing her sexuality to family members. Paris has said in the past that she is gay but doesn’t like to label her sexuality. In June 2020, Paris added that she had been with more women than men in her life.
Open with boyfriend: Paris Jackson gave an extremely candid interview with longtime friend Willow Smith in an episode of Red Table Talk released Wednesday
Model Chanel told Willow, who identifies as bisexual, “I’ve reached a point right now where I have love and respect for my family, their beliefs, their culture, their religion and so i have to expect them to put this aside just so i can feel accepted, expectations lead to resentment for me.
The beauty added that she tries to make sure that what other people think of her isn’t up to her. “As long as I live a life of love, service and honesty and don’t hurt others, I think I’ll be fine,” Paris explained.
Jackson went on to say, ‘I’m still figuring out. My family is very religious and a lot of homosexuality is very taboo, so they don’t like to talk about it, it’s not really accepted. ‘ Most of the Jackson are Jehovah’s Witnesses.
Tricky subject: The Habit star also opened up about her past suicide attempts at Willow
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“But I got to a point where I respect them and I have love for them, I respect their beliefs, I respect their religion,” said the daughter of the late Michael Jackson.
The Habit star also opened up about her past suicide attempts to Willow, who revealed to her mother Jada Pinkett Smith, 49, during a past episode of Red Table Talk, that she was having thoughts of suicide and that she used to cut herself.
Paris said: “A lot of people regret when they try to kill themselves. Like a last minute regret. There have been times I have done it, there have been times I haven’t. Where I was upset, it didn’t work.
Scary: The Lowkey in Love singer explained that she fears her suicide attempts will ultimately lead to lasting injury
“But I can say several years later that I’m really grateful that I didn’t. Things have improved.
The Lowkey in Love singer explained that she fears her suicide attempts will result in lasting injury. ‘I’ve heard these gnarly stories from people who tried to [hang] themselves and they end up paralyzed and still live. Knowing my luck, as many times as I tried I would probably find myself in this kind of situation.
Jackson attributed her suicidal thoughts to the depression and cyberbullying she experienced as a teenager. “It was really difficult. And people would tell me to kill myself every day. And I was depressed.
Struggle: Jackson attributed her suicidal thoughts to the depression and cyberbullying she experienced as a teenager
Paris said she was heartbroken when she and her ex-boyfriend and former bandmate Gabriel Glenn ended their relationship in August 2020.
“It was the deepest heartbreak I have ever known. But it was also one of the most powerful rebirths I’ve ever had to find my voice and find my sound and embrace being a musician, ”she said. Paris then released a solo album titled Wilted which concerned her split with Glenn.
“I was afraid to do this for a long time. Well, I’m just like, that’s who I am, I’m a musician.
Hard breakup: Jackson said of his split from Gabriel Glenn: “It was the deepest I have ever loved someone, it was the most intense I have felt so far and the betrayal the most intense I have felt and experienced so far ”
Jackson continued, “It was the deepest I have ever loved someone, it was the most intense I have felt so far and the most intense betrayal I have felt and experienced so far. ‘now.
“It definitely closed me off from this, I’m very careful who I spend time with now and very careful and trying to protect myself. “
Smith raised the issue of privacy concerns, admitting that she may be paranoid about protecting personal information in her relationships. Paris said she felt the same.
“Everyone who comes into my home signs an NDA. Like, it’s gnarly, ”she revealed.
Lost love: Paris said she was heartbroken when she and her ex-boyfriend and former band member Gabriel Glenn ended their two-year relationship in August 2020
Willow expressed her empathy by saying, ‘Yo, like. It’s boring. Even being like, ‘Oh, delete that text’ because I don’t want people to do that, like– ‘
“Oh yeah, that does a lot for your nervous system because you’re constantly in a fight or flight,” Paris replied.
She continued: ‘Fight, flight, freeze, collapse. You are constantly walking on eggshells, constantly looking over your shoulder.
“Like, you have to stand up straight and act right because if you don’t it doesn’t just take its toll on your reputation, [but also] your family’s reputation… like, it’s very, “pay attention, sit down, smile, do whatever it takes”.
Dealing with the loss: The Whip It singer asked Jackson how she was able to move forward after the sudden death of her famous father in 2009
“100%,” Smith said. Paris also told her that she had “audio hallucinations” and PTSD due to the constant attention of the paparazzi.
The Whip It singer asked Jackson how she was able to move forward after the sudden death of her famous father in 2009.
She replied, ‘I don’t know, it just happened. I was so young.
“I was just going through the movements and I didn’t really understand what was going on and I just followed what I was told to do… I didn’t really have a lot of advice. Paris was 11 when Michael died and she and her brothers Prince, 24, and Blanket, 19, went to live with their grandmother, Katherine, 91.
Family ties: Paris discussed knowing her birth mother, Debbie Rowe, whom she met when she was 15
The model said she was close to her brothers, who supported her sexuality, with Prince joining a gay-straight alliance group at his high school. She also spoke about getting to know her birth mother, Debbie Rowe, whom she met when she was 15.
She said: ‘It’s cool, like getting to know her, to see how similar we are.
“To find out more about what kind of music she loves – she really loves country and folk – I send her some of the stuff I’m working on… We look a lot alike,” Jackson added.
“It’s just cool to have her as a friend. It’s very cold, which I love is the perfect word to describe it.