A writer from Dawson’s Creek and Wasteland committed suicide after a lengthy battle with COVID-19 that left her bedridden and continually riddled with pain more than a year later.
Heidi Ferrer, 50, committed suicide on May 26 at her home in Los Angeles, California, following a long battle with COVID-19, her family said.
The mother-of-one contracted the virus in April 2020 after experiencing body aches, including severe foot and ankle pain, fatigue and flu-like symptoms.
Her symptoms intensified and by June she was bedridden. Over the next several months, Ferrer’s fatigue and pain in her feet remained, but she also became paralyzed with neurological tremors.
In a heartbreaking blog post she wrote in September titled ‘How I Recover from Long-Range COVID’, Ferrer explained how the virus had crippled her, but said ‘COVID will not win’.
Heidi Ferrer, 50, committed suicide on May 26 at her Los Angeles, Calif. Home following a protracted battle with COVID-19, her family said
“The monster is real and it came for me. Recovering from COVID-19 has been one of the most difficult things I have ever experienced and I have been through a lot, ”she wrote.
“In my darkest times, I told my husband that if I wasn’t getting better, I didn’t want to live like this. I wasn’t suicidal, I just didn’t see any long-term quality of life and there was no end in sight.
“One of the cruelest things COVID did to me was take away the ability to have dreams. I don’t mean dreams in my sleep, I mean I completely stopped dreaming about my future because I couldn’t imagine it. It was a wall.
“Yes, everyone had lost our trips, our events, our free lives during the shutdown, but I had lost all of that and I also suddenly became paralyzed by frightening neurological programs. ”
Ferrer told those going through similar long-term struggles with COVID that they can all get away with it and urged them to never give up.
“I believe it deeply: if you suffer from this monster, eventually you will get out of it, we will heal,” Ferrer wrote.
“Slowly, almost inexorably, sometimes freezing cold… we are recovering. It’s just that no one knows for sure how long it might take, maybe six months, maybe a year.
Ferrer explained how her condition started to improve in August and that she had longer stretches of good days.
The mother-of-one contracted the virus in April 2020 after experiencing body aches, including severe foot and ankle pain, fatigue and flu-like symptoms. She is pictured above in her latest family photo with husband Nick Guthe and 13-year-old son Bexon
Her husband Nick Guthe, writer, director and producer, revealed the news of his death on social media after the 13-month battle
Heidi’s husband posted this photo taken three months before her death. His condition has reportedly deteriorated rapidly in recent months
“I now believe that I will have even more ‘waves’ of symptoms and bad days, but I feel like this is happening every month now instead of every 1 to 2 weeks,” he said. she declared.
“My loose schedule is that about two weeks after the first symptoms in mid-April I had COVID toes on May 1, then a month later I succumbed to 2 months of crippling pain from the hell, then I started to slowly heal.
“I had a turn at 12 weeks, then a much bigger turn at 16 weeks, and I expect to be a lot better in two months, 6 months after the onset of symptoms. Crossed fingers.
“Time will tell, but my focus is on being extremely optimistic. COVID will not win.
At the end of his blog post, Ferrer wrote, “I’m not out of the woods yet, but I see a clearing. ”
His condition is believed to have deteriorated rapidly in recent months.
Her husband Nick Guthe, writer, director and producer, has revealed the news of his death on social media after the 13-month battle.
“She fought like she was alive, fiercely, but in the end it was relentless and took everything away from her,” Guthe wrote in a Facebook post.
Ferrer was a career screenwriter who wrote several episodes of the hit 90s shows Dawson’s Creek and Wasteland, as well as several films.
In recent years, she has grown into a passionate and well-known blogger.
She is survived by her husband Nick and their 13 year old son Bexon.
In a heartbreaking blog post she wrote in September titled ‘How I Recover from Long-Range COVID’, Ferrer explained how the virus had crippled her, but said ‘COVID will not win’. She is pictured above in September last year when she said her condition was improving