Britney Spears wrote to fans on Instagram on Thursday saying she was sorry that she “pretended to be okay for the past two years”, her first public statement since her disturbing testimony in court about her “abusive” guardianship.
In her message Thursday afternoon, she said she had not spoken earlier because “I was embarrassed to share what happened to me.”
The 39-year-old pop star had testified the day before that she was forced to work against her will and that guardianship had prevented her from getting married or withdrawing her contraceptive so she could have another baby. She said that her boyfriend is also prohibited from driving her in his car and that she cannot see some friends. The trusteeship has been in place for 13 years and has given a Chartered Curator, a Corporate Trustee and her father, Jamie Spears, control over her estate, career, medical care and other aspects. of his personal life.
His Instagram message for Thursday shared a quote about the importance of fairy tales and said his upbeat social media posts gave him millions of fans the wrong impression of his life.
She wrote: “I just want to tell you a little secret… I believe that as people we all want fairytale life and besides I posted… my life seems to be pretty amazing… I think that’s what we all have. fight for !!!!
“It was one of my mom’s best traits… no matter how shitty a day was when I was younger… for the sake of me and my siblings, she always pretended everything was fine.” .
“I’m bringing this to people’s attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because IT DEFINITELY ISN’T AT ALL… and if you’ve read something about me in the news this week … !!!! ”
Spears apologized to fans for showing courage for two years, adding, “I did it because of my pride… but honestly, who doesn’t want to capture Instagram in a funny light !!!! “
The chart-topping singer, who hasn’t performed since 2018, said pretending to be fine on social media has “really helped.”
She wrote: “So I decided to post this quote today because damn if you’re going through hell… I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence. … My existence… and just feeling like I mattered no matter what I was living and hey, it worked… so I decided to start reading more fairy tales.
The post echoed her moving remarks in the Los Angeles courtroom, in which she said, “I lied and told the whole world that I’m fine and happy… I’ve been in. denial. I was in shock. I’m traumatized, you know, pretend until you get there. But now I’m telling you the truth.
Sam Asghari, Spears’ 27-year-old boyfriend, shared a video on Instagram showing the couple in what appeared to be a private plane.
During her dramatic court appearance, Spears said she was forced to perform on tour when she didn’t want to, comparing her to sex trafficking.
She called on the judge to end it without needing an additional medical examination and criticized her father for controlling the intimate details of her life. She also said she wanted to hire her own lawyer instead of being forced to rely on the court-appointed one, who did not file a petition to end the guardianship. She said it “didn’t make sense” for her to be forced into a trusteeship when she has a thriving career and is making millions of dollars in performances.
Celebrities and activists around the world rallied around the pop star over the final day, with some calling for her to be released from custody as a matter of urgency.
Her father’s lawyers have already defended her role in guardianship and said in court that he misses her and is sorry to see her suffer.