“Yeah, it is,” Paquette said to Bully Ray’s question. “It’s funny because when you’re kind of in the thick of it, and I’m not from the actual wrestling world, I’ve spent almost the last decade doing it. So yes, I definitely caught this bug. I miss being around shows, I miss being with people. There are a lot of them, some of the b —— t that I don’t miss. But that’s what I love about what I’m doing now, that I can really do my own thing and focus on my own strengths.
“But on the other side of being able to have this baby and then put my cart back on the track is like figuring out ‘what do I want to do after this?’ And I think in the fall, I think I could get a better idea of what that looks like, the different things I could do. I don’t know yet what it is, if it will be in a fight or if it will be in another way. But I think I never want to turn my back on the relationship that I was able to build with wrestling and the wrestling community and with these fans and stuff. It’s something I’m really proud to have been able to go and make my own path there. I don’t want to turn my back on this. So figure out what that next move will be. And honestly, my main thing that I always come back to, and I don’t know where I’m going to do this or how I’m going to do it, but I want to do the Tuesday Night Titans.
Paquette was asked to give details of the things he was not lacking in wrestling. She wasted no time in saying that the problem was not the wrestling part of the business, but the micromanagement that takes place throughout WWE.
“For me, it’s not wrestling,” Paquette said. “The wrestling side of wrestling that I love. It’s the production side of things that can be a kick in the lady’s cock. Just be micromanaged. I don’t like being micromanaged, I don’t like being under the microscope as much as we are or can be in this world. You think you went through it once and “okay, I’m safe!” And then like, another year or so later, it’s ‘you’re back under the microscope’. Trying to adjust to that and trying to be fun for others, while still being true to yourself, can be a very fine line to walk. And it can be very exhausting.
In particular, Paquette was not a fan of her stint as a commentator for Monday Night RAW. She attributes it to her taking the job with little confidence, and then losing even more confidence as internal criticism of the company escalates.
“It’s really tough because my confidence was also in the shitter back then, so I felt like I was being hammered on both sides,” Paquette said. “I was like ‘oh my god why am I here? I no longer know why I am here. I feel like no one is happy with what I’m doing. And I’m doing my best to make the most of this situation and it’s a fantastic opportunity. But you walk into something and you already feel that your confidence is a little bit broken, you’re not going to have a great performance.
“And that doesn’t just apply to me. I saw that it applies to so many people under this umbrella, and it’s really hard to play like that. And I don’t think that inspires talent to be as good as they can be and do what they’re hired to do and let them shine and be who they are. There were times when I felt like we were having some really good shows and I felt like getting into a little bit of rhythm. And then you would be hit with another piece of information, like “that sucks” or “that was crap”. It can be really difficult. You start to get into your head and it becomes impossible to feel that you are doing a good job.
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