But by then, the loyal Lambs – as loyal Carey fans are called – will know many more secrets about the star from reading her book. Here are 10 juicy moments, from the singer drugged by her sister and stabbed by her husband to the sad story behind her becoming the Christmas Queen.
1. She felt that she did not belong
Growing up biracial, with a white mother and a black father, Carey didn’t feel out of place – or even deserved to exist.
“There was a time in my early childhood when I didn’t believe I was worthy to be alive,” she writes. “I was too young to consider ending my life, but just old enough to know that I had neither started living nor found myself. Nowhere in my world have I seen someone who looked like me or reflected what I felt inside.
2. She grew up in a violent household
She writes in the book that her ‘broken’ older brother Morgan was violent and abusive – to the point that one night Carey, 6, had to call the cops after her teenage brother injured their mother. “Choking on tears, I did my best to calmly say to her, ‘My brother really hurt my mother and I’m home alone. Please come help. … One of the cops, looking at me but talking to another cop next to him, said, “If this kid succeeds, it will be a miracle. And that night, I became less of a child and more miraculous, ”she writes.
3. She survived an alleged attempted murder
Carey writes that her mother’s lovers threatened to kill her and her mother for leaving him. “He held a long double barreled shotgun in one of his hands,” she wrote. “I’m not going to let you go,” he said. “I’m going to cut you up, put you in the fridge, and have you stay here.” After saying that, I rushed to get in the car. My mom started the engine.
4. Her sister drugged her and left her prey to her boyfriend as a preteen
Carey claims in the book that when she was just 12, her older sister Alison drugged her with a whole Valium and left a young MC in the throes of one of her boyfriends, who was packing a gun on a scary car ride.
“John, his gun and I made two stops: a card game and a drive-through movie,” she wrote. “John put his arm around me. My body has become stiff. My eyes were fixed on his gun. John moved closer and forced a hard kiss on me. I was nauseous and scared; I felt immobilized. But luckily she was saved by an old man “looking straight into John’s car… I kept that man’s face in memory. “
5. She called life with her ex-husband a prison
She kept a “to go” bag under the bed she shared with her ex-husband – and former label boss – Tommy Mottola at their Bedford, New York resort, which she called “Sing Sing.” “I would keep my bag full of essentials in case I had to escape quickly,” she wrote. “Captivity and control come in many forms, but the goal is always the same: to break the will of the captive, to kill any notion of self-esteem and to erase the memory of the person of his own soul… little by little , through the lyrics of my songs.
6. She claims her ex threatened her with a knife
Carey says Mottola once held a knife over her when she wanted to leave him. “I was sitting still, looking at the table, when Tommy walked over and took the butter knife from the square in front of me,” she wrote. “He pressed the flat side of it against my right cheek… Tommy held the knife there.” Her boys watched and didn’t say a word… It was her last show with me as a captive audience of Sing Sing.
The Post contacted Mottola for comment.
7. She lives from “Christmas to Christmas”
Carey, who is famous for celebrating “birthdays” rather than birthdays, breaks down his conception of time in the preface.
“Once I got my record deal, I expired and my life began,” she writes. “Since that day, I have calculated my life through albums, creative experiences, professional achievements and vacations. I live from Christmas to Christmas, from party to party, from party to party, not counting my birthdays or my ages… Why spoil the trip by looking at the clock and the ticking of the years? “
8. Christmas was not a happy time growing up
Miss “All I want for Christmas is you” maintained her love for all things Christmas despite her family playing Scrooge as a child. “I couldn’t understand why every year they just had to ruin Christmas,” she wrote. “I set out to create my own little, magical, merry Christmas world… All I needed was a shower of glitter and a full church choir to support me. My imaginary Christmas was filled with Santa Claus, reindeer, snowmen, and all the bells and toppings a little girl’s dreams could contain.
9. She knew she was a musician at 3
Carey was born to be a diva – in every sense of the word. She got it from her mom, an opera singer trained at Juilliard.
“One day, when she was practicing an aria from the opera ‘Rigoletto’, she kept tripping over that part,” she wrote. “I sang back to him, in perfect Italian. I was maybe three years old. She looked at me, stunned, and then I knew she was seeing me. I was more than a little girl to her. I was Mariah. A musician. “
10. His “TRL” appearance in 2001 was a “stunt”
His infamous “TRL” appearance in 2001 – riding an ice cream cart and rocking a “Loverboy” t-shirt – was a stunt gone wrong. “It was an innocent and silly stunt and without any repetition,” she wrote. “I was hoping Carson Day would play with me, riffle and engage the audience… But he didn’t play along… It seemed like a good idea at the time. Any idea was good at the time. I was like a comic who bombed a set.