How did you start to recruit people to sing “Live Your Life” every day?
I thought if something was going to wake him up, the whole world would sing his song. He always wanted to be a rock star, and we’re going to make him a rock star. And then it took like wildfire.
You and your sister started a line of T-shirt together, and now you’re going to collaborate on a book?
Yes, I am writing a memoir about that time and I am writing it with Anna Kloots, my sister. It’s about everything I’ve been through, positivity, faith and resilience. I started writing when I was in Ohio with my mom and dad, right after Nick passed away. I actually found it to be incredibly therapeutic.
It seems that religion has also played a big role in how you do.
I grew up Lutheran and have been quite religious all my life. I’m not denominational right now, but I’ve always prayed, I’ve always felt comfort in going to church, and I don’t know how I could have gotten through without my faith and my prayer. .
You talk about accepting the will of God, but it must be difficult now.
It’s difficult. You know, to say, “Everything happens for a reason,” and you’re like, “Really?” Like, “Why? Why Nick? But there were so many times in the hospital, or on a phone call, when I was talking to the doctors, and they would tell me Nick wasn’t going to make it – they would tell me he had an hour left. or two to live. And I prayed so hard because that’s how I was able to help. And he would live and he would fight and he would hold out.
But once that happened, I was praying and I said, “God, your will be done. I’ll never understand if you take it. But it’s not my will, it’s your will. It helped me in the hospital and it helps me today. It’s not that the hospital hasn’t done enough. It’s not that I haven’t done enough. It’s God’s will.
I know you hear this over and over again, but it is striking how positive you sound.
I can’t be in a hole in my life right now because I have a beautiful baby boy who is counting on me. And on top of that, that’s what Nick would like me to do. There are times every day that I’m sad, and there are times every day that I cry. But I also have to find the little things throughout the day that make me happy, otherwise I know I won’t survive.