Christina Anstead opens up about her struggle with anxiety following her separation from her second husband, Ant Anstead.
The ‘Flip or Flop’ star, who continues to tour with her first husband, Tarek El Moussa, revealed last week that she and Ant had separated after almost two years of marriage.
Christina, 37, detailed her battle with anxiety in a touching post on Saturday, in which she also discusses her failed marriages.
She began by reintroducing herself for those “who don’t know me or think you know me”, revealing that she “never thought of being on television” but developed a love for model homes. from an early age with his parents.
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“I started in real estate at age 21 which led to selling houses which led to flipped houses which led to television,” Christina wrote in the long caption of a selfie from car.
“Now that I’ve never wanted to be on TV, stepping out of my comfort zone and into the unknown has always been my thing. I live in a state of anxiety and I’m so used to it that when it’s not there I tend to feel a void and jump into something that causes the feeling I’m used to, ”he said. she continued.
Christina says she is “grateful” for the life her television career has given her. However, she also said that the pursuit of “new dreams” had also left her “feeling lost and in a fight or flight / or crying in my closet.”
She said she never believed her love life would have turned out the way she has in recent years.
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“I never thought I would have one divorce let alone two,” the HGTV star wrote. “I never thought I would have 2 baby dads – but sometimes life throws curved balls at us. “
The “Flip or Flop” co-host went on to say that amid the falls, she sees challenges “as opportunities for growth.”
“I’m messy, I’m real, and I’m working on healing. I am surrounded by extremely powerful women who help me cope, develop and push me to be better, ”she concluded.
The mother of three said she hopes others will be inspired by her post and encouraged her followers to “not be so hard on yourself about the decisions / choices you have made”.
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Christina shares two children – daughter Taylor, 9, and son Brayden, 5 – with El Moussa. She gave birth to her third child, Hudson, 1, with Ant last September.
Christina’s post comes after Ant broke his silence on social media on Thursday with a black and white photo where he wears his wedding ring. Wheelers Dealers star Ant, 41, has not commented publicly on the split.
The two TV stars started dating in 2017 and tied the knot a year later in a ceremony in Newport Beach, Calif.