Suzanne Shaw has revealed that she has been taking antidepressants for 20 years.
In an interview with OK! Magazine, the singer, who found fame in Hear’Say in 2000, admitted she had days when she didn’t want to “wake up”.
Suzanne, 38, added that she made the decision to quit alcohol in January this year, after drinking alcohol her thoughts turned into a downward trajectory of “growing thoughts.” dark ”.
Mental health: Suzanne Shaw revealed she has been taking antidepressants for 20 years (pictured last month)
Suzanne said, “I have been on antidepressants and have been taking them for 20 years, I stopped them during my pregnancy, but I took them again when I had postpartum depression twice.
“If I had had a really heavy night, I wouldn’t want to wake up. I would never kill myself because of the kids and the responsibilities, but I was thinking, “Ugh, not another day, I can’t do this.” I put the quilt over my head and wanted everything to go away.
Suzanne was only 18 when she first rose to prominence on Popstars The Rivals and formed the band Hear’Say with Myleene Klass and Kym Marsh.
Suzanne was only 18 when she found fame on Popstars The Rivals and formed the group Hear’Say with Noel Sullivan, Danny Foster, Myleene Klass and Kym Marsh in 2000.
However, she admitted that she struggled to be in the spotlight as those she thought were friends were selling stories about her.
The Popstar star has now given up on alcohol, admitting that drinking only made his depression worse.
“I was tired of having had enough of myself. I would do two months of not drinking, then I would go to a wedding, I would drink a lot and it would reintroduce me into my life and I would drink more, ”she said.
Tough: Suzanne admitted she struggled to be in the spotlight because those she thought were friends were selling stories about her
Suzanne said that every time she drank it “had a huge impact on my depression”.
Her thoughts started to get darker and darker as she struggled to find a way out and the hangover sent “anxiety through the roof.”
In January, the TV personality decided to take on the One Year No Beer challenge and has been sober for the past seven months.
Suzanne, who has two children and is engaged to fiancé Sam Greenfield, said she preferred her life “so much more now” and couldn’t see herself in.
The former Emmerdale actress – who also went vegan after turning to binge eating when she was feeling weak – now feels much better about herself, telling herself that she is less anxious and self-critical.
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Struggle: Suzanne said: “I have been on antidepressants and have been taking them for 20 years, I gave them up during my pregnancy” (photo with the group in 2002)