Amanda Kloots reveals her grief over the death of her husband, Nick Cordero.
Kloots first shared a letter on Instagram Stories on Thursday evening that she wrote with her 1-year-old son Elvis to explain “everything that happened” with her father, who said in part: ” I miss him so much. I miss her voice, hugs, kisses, smile, silliness. I wish that the quarantine would have brought the three of us together every day. We have to look for silver liners in life, my son.
“Life is never perfect, things happen, we will never understand. Look for lessons, keep moving, find beauty, love mom, ”he concluded.
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Kloots then spoke of grief. “You know, it’s so funny because grief is such a weird thing,” she says. “I talked about everything else in this process, so it is strangely wrong not to speak up and acknowledge the grief. “
She noted that when it comes to bereavement and “living something like that” during your day, you ask, “Do I allow myself to cry? I allow myself to recognize what happened and … what have these been three months of my life? ”
“I’m just starting to wonder about everything I’m going through right now and my daily life,” she said.
Kloots said she “always takes care of so many things” and said that her grief did not hit her until she fell asleep.
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“‘… Am I also acknowledging everything that happened and acknowledging my sadness? ” she asked. “Often it only hits me at night, when I go to sleep. I don’t think there is a good answer to grief or the way someone complains or the process … It’s different for everyone. ”
For Kloots, she said “it’s definitely difficult”, especially for a “type A” person like her who “wants to keep pushing”, explaining this work and doing various things to help it to spend.
Yet, at the same time, a watery-eyed Kloots said “it’s so hard.”
“And when it hits you, it’s so hard. But I know it’s going to get easier every day, ”she noted.
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Kloots also shared that she had recently had a “wonderful phone conversation” with Cordero’s doctor and called the experience “a nice shutdown”.
She concluded: “I just wanted to share because I think it is important to talk about grief, especially at a time when many people are suffering from the loss of this virus. ”
Tony-appointed Broadway actor was hospitalized with the coronavirus in March, which led to a long health battle that saw him face a myriad of complications, including a temporary pacemaker and amputation of the leg.
“God has another angel in heaven now. My darling husband passed away this morning. He was surrounded by family, singing and praying as he slowly left this land, “Kloots shared on Instagram when she announced the death of her husband. “I am incredulous and I suffer everywhere. My heart is broken because I cannot imagine our lives without him. Nick was such a bright light. He was everyone’s friend, loved to listen, help and above all talk. He was an incredible actor and musician. He loved his family and loved being a father and a husband. Elvis and I will miss each other in everything we do, everyday. ”
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During Cordero’s hospitalization, Kloots sent him daily videos of her and Elvis, so he could see them if he woke up, and urged his friends and fans to join in a daily song .
Tyler McCarthy of Fox News contributed to this report