She and her husband James told fans that they decided to abandon the baby boy after discovering that he had “many more special needs than we knew”.
Huxley suffers from autism and sensory processing difficulties, forcing Myka and James to throw in the towel.
But despite the mass outrage that their decision sparked – including many lost partnership deals, which is a lot of money – Myka sticks to her decision.
In a long statement on Instagram, she wrote, “First I want to apologize for the outcry and take full responsibility for all the harm I caused. This decision caused so much heartache and I am sorry to have dropped so many women who considered me a mother.
“I am sorry for the confusion and pain I caused, and I am sorry that I cannot tell my story more from the start. “
The vlogger – who is also the mother of the biological children Nakova, eight, Jaka, six, Radley, four, and 11 months Onyx – continued: “I could never have predicted that incidents on a private level would not never happened. , and I was doing my best to navigate the most difficult thing I have ever experienced.
“I apologize for being so naive when I started the adoption process, I was not selective or fully equipped or prepared. “
She continued: “I received a day of online video training at home and obtained my adoption certification from The Hague which was required by my accredited adoption agency.
“I can’t say I wish it never happened because I’m always so happy that Huxley is there and has received all the help he needs.
“I also know that even if he is happier in his new house and is doing better, he still suffered trauma and I am sorry, no adoptee deserves more trauma. “
She added, “I wanted to help so badly that I wanted to bring home any child who needed me. For that, I was naive, stupid and arrogant. I wish so much that I would have been more prepared and done more. I wish that the decision to disrupt should never have been made.
“The adoption and all the special needs are incredible and I have a ton of respect for all adoptees, adoptive parents and parents with special needs. I admire you in a thousand ways. And I’m sorry for hurting the community in any way. ”
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