The 33-year-old, of Goole, in East Yorkshire, admits that it is not a step, it would have been able to feel at ease during his playing days.
“I never thought I would get out while playing,” he said to the Lawyer.
“I literally felt like I had to sacrifice one of the two: who I am, or the sport that I loved before that I can remember.
“I used football as a form of escapism and many ways, he saved me, until I reached a point in life where there was some personal growth. I was standing still on that front.
“The company [told] to me masculinity is linked to sexuality and therefore to be an athlete playing a physical sport felt like a huge contradiction. ”
After failing to make the grade at Hull, Beattie moved to the united states between the ages of 19 to play football on a scholarship.
And he admits that he is yet to come.
“It is always a new and ongoing process for me, to be honest,” he said. “I have told close friends and family three months ago, when I decided to embark on the path to talk openly about this topic.
“As an athlete, it was something that was dumb, this is why I want to share my story in the hope that there will eventually be more support for people in a similar situation.
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“Recently, I’ve started telling some of my former teammates who have been amazing and treated me not a single ounce of a different way. They know that I’m the same boy that I have 10 minutes before telling them which was refreshing. ”
Beattie, who has established himself in the reserves of the Hull, but has failed to break into the first team, has played for Forest City in London, City of London, Ottawa Fury, Hougang United and Warriors professionally as an attacking midfielder.