Janet Devlin revealed that she had attempted suicide during the height of her alcohol addiction and that she would wake up with “a bottle of gin under her pillow”.
The 25-year-old Northern Irish singer rose to fame after stopping on the X-Factor in 2011 where she finished fifth at the age of 16.
However, after moving to Sheffield alone at the age of 17, she began to drink to hide her crippling shyness.
At the height of her problem, Janet admitted that she would regularly go to work drunk, and that she would drink to hide the “incessant voice” in her head, which fueled her social anxiety.
Admitting today to Loose Women that she would “disappear regularly” for days, Janet was finally able to stop drinking after receiving a card for a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous, which she said “changed her life.”
Janet Devlin, pictured during her X-Factor audition, found fame after appearing on reality TV in 2011, where she finished fifth at the age of 16.
She appeared on Loose Women today where she said after moving to Sheffield alone at the age of 17, she started drinking to hide her crippling shyness
Janet said, “When I was 18, I had a definite problem,” asked host Jane Moore: “What made you think that?” “
The singer replied, “Perhaps the failed suicide attempt. “
She continued, “I don’t know exactly when it is really dark, but I wake up almost every day with a bottle of gin under my pillow. Every day, before working everyday, I had to get drunk.
Janet said she often mixes sleeping pills with alcohol, but said that her suicide attempts were “never planned.”
Speaking on the show, Janet revealed that she had attempted suicide during the height of her alcohol addiction and that she would wake up with a “bottle of gin under her pillow”
Janet said she often mixes sleeping pills with alcohol, but said that her suicide attempts were “never planned”
Speaking of her suicide attempt, Janet said, “My family didn’t know it at the time, most of it had never been planned.
“It happened when I had too much to drink, I had access to sleeping pills and I mixed the two. My poor mom was just waiting for this call to find out that I was gone.
The reality star moved to Sheffield from Northern Ireland to record an album at age 17, and said that alcohol would give him “a boost of confidence” in social situations.
“At that time, life was so hectic,” said Janet. “It was amazing, but at the end of the day, you are alone in your apartment and you don’t know anyone.
“When I was in social situations, I turned to alcohol to restore my self-confidence.”
Janet says her first AA meeting “changed her life.” She is represented in London in 2016
Although many expect Janet to be shy after watching her on the series, she says social anxiety meant that she had to “stifle” her negative thoughts with alcohol.
“People knew my hearing and expected me to be shy, it was just that incessant voice in my head that made me drink so much.
“That voice would be like,” They don’t even like you, you have to go home, they do this out of pity. ” And the only thing I could do to drown it was alcohol.
Janet explained that it was her mother’s visit that helped her get sober after being swiped an AA card after being refused from an overcrowded rehab clinic.
She said, “I tried to get sober at times and it didn’t really work and my mom flew over because I had been missing for three days, again.
“She tried to get me into a clinic and I couldn’t, so someone swiped me a card for AA and the first meeting really changed my life. “