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Duffy exposed the four weeks of rape and kidnapping that saw her disappear from the public eye.
The Welsh singer-songwriter revealed in February that she had been drugged, kidnapped and raped – a secret she had planned to share countless times in the past decade.
The 35-year-old debut album was the UK’s best-selling album in 2008, winning three Brit Awards and one Grammy; however, she practically disappeared after the release of her second album in 2010.
Now the singer of “Mercy” has gone into the details of the traumatic experience that made her disappear from the spotlight.
In a long blog post, she wrote, “It was my birthday, I was drugged in a restaurant, then I was drugged for four weeks and I traveled to a foreign country. I do not remember getting on the plane and coming in the back of a rolling vehicle.
“I was put in a hotel room and the assailant came back and raped me. I remember the pain and tried to stay conscious in the bedroom after it happened. I was stuck with him for another day, he didn’t look at me, I was walking behind him, I was a little aware and withdrawn. I could have gotten rid of him.
“I was considering fleeing to the next town or city while he was sleeping, but I had no money and was afraid he would call the police for running away, and may -be they would find me as a missing person. don’t know how I had the strength to endure those days, I felt the presence of something that helped me stay alive.
“I came home with him, I stayed calm and as normal as someone in such a situation, and when I got home, I sat, dizzy, like a zombie. I knew my life was in immediate danger, he made a veiled confession of wanting to kill me. With the little strength I had, my instinct was to run, run and find a place to live that he could not find.
“The assailant drugged me at home for the past four weeks, I don’t know if he raped me there during that time, I only remember driving in the country stranger and the escape that would happen if I fled in the next day. I don’t know why I wasn’t drugged abroad, it makes me think that I was given a class A medication and that he could not travel with it. “
Following the ordeal, Duffy – whose real name is Aimee Anne Duffy – stated that she did not feel safe going to the police because if something had gone wrong ‘he would have killed me ‘, and she found herself isolated from the outside world.
She said, “In the process, I wouldn’t see someone, a physical soul, sometimes weeks and weeks and weeks at a time, being alone. I would take off my pajamas and throw it into the fire and put on another set. My hair was getting so knotted that I didn’t brush it, while I was crying, I cut it all.
“I just haven’t been the same person for so long. Rape is like living murder, you are alive but dead. All I can say is that it took an extremely long time, sometimes endless, to recover my broken pieces. “
“I have moved five times in the next three years, never feeling safe from the rapist, I have been on the run for so long. “
She went on to say that she has since spoken to the police twice about the rape, following a home invasion and threatened blackmail. Regarding her musical career, she said that she hoped to “publish a set of works one day, although I very much doubt that I will ever be the person people have known.”
In closing her article, she wrote, “I can now leave this decade behind. Where the past belongs. Hopefully “what happened to Duffy’s questions”, now you know … and I’m free. “
You can read the full blog here.