CNN anchor Brooke Baldwin revealed new details about her “very dark” battle with the coronavirus, admitting that the horrible symptoms she suffered left her in tears every night.
The 40-year-old woman, who first revealed that she had contracted COVID-19 on April 3, spoke about her fight against the new virus in a new essay for CNN, in which she detailed the “two weeks full blows »body endured.
“It took two weeks to beat my body. I went to very dark places, especially at night, “said Baldwin, adding:” Under the influence of the coronavirus, at the end of each day, I cried often, unable to ward off the feeling of terror and isolation. that I felt. about what was going to happen.
“Very dark”: CNN presenter Brooke Baldwin spoke about her battle with COVID-19, detailing the painful symptoms that left her in tears every night
Brutal: 40-year-old woman said she had no trouble breathing, but revealed that she had lost all sense of taste and smell, and suffered from horrible body aches, fevers, and chills
Although she “considers herself one of the luckiest,” Baldwin’s symptoms were incredibly difficult to manage – especially the horrible body aches she faced every day, as well as a complete loss of taste and odor, which was one of the first indications that she had contracted the new virus.
“I remember the day before I lost my taste or smell. I continued to smell the acrid ammonia smell of the jewelry cleaner, “she said. “Except there was no jewelry cleaner in sight.
“The next morning – wham – I couldn’t taste the salted butter on my toast, and I couldn’t smell a whiff of peppermint in my tea.
Fortunately, Baldwin says she never had a hard time breathing and that “her version of the virus” did not attack her lungs in the same “suffocating” way that so many other patients have known.
“Even though my body constantly gave me the middle finger, my lungs did not,” she wrote.
However, while his lungs remained healthy, Baldwin suffered from terrible fevers, chills and aches, as well as glandular swelling under his jaw.
“Along with my appetite, my energy has also been reduced,” she said. “I slept easily 10 to 12 hours a night, waking up several mornings soaked in sweat through the sheets.
“A gland the size of a swelling golf ball under my jaw became the daily sign that my body was fighting.
Ups and downs: Baldwin documented some of her troubles on Instagram, but revealed in her essay for CNN that she was too tired even to pose for photos
Agony: One of the worst things about the virus, Baldwin revealed, was the feeling that she would never recover
Baldwin says that one of the scariest things about the virus was the terrifying feeling that she might never recover; she shared that there were days when fevers and chills “left just long enough to make me think I was finally recovering” before ravaging her body again.
“I never knew when it would end. It was relentless, scary and lonely, “she said.
CNN’s anchor said she and her husband James Fletcher did their best to keep a social distance after they started showing symptoms, revealing that the couple slept in separate rooms and used different bathrooms during the first days of his illness.
However, after watching his wife become increasingly ill, it became impossible for Fletcher to stay away from her, Baldwin sharing that “in his darkest moments,” he would simply hold her while she was crying.
“These simple acts of connecting with me and hugging me were restorative beyond measure,” she said, revealing that the loneliness she had experienced fighting the virus alone “could have been worse than the body suffers. “
Fortunately, her husband has not yet suffered from any symptoms of the new virus, and the couple remains optimistic that he has not contracted it, or that he is asymptomatic, like the GMA anchor George Stephanopoulos, which was tested positive for COVID-19, but did not have any symptoms.
In addition to paying tribute to her “selfless husband,” Baldwin says the virus has also helped him to better appreciate the importance and effectiveness of human relationships when it comes to maintaining his health and happiness.
She thanked the thousands of people who extended her best wishes, from family members to friends to old acquaintances she hasn’t spoken to in years – including her dentist, and DJ Jazzy Jeff, who also suffered from a bad episode of the disease, and reached out with a message of support.
Diagnosis: Baldwin said she followed all social distancing recommendations and doesn’t know how she got the virus
Message: The journalist announced her diagnosis in an Instagram publication on April 3
In this package: Baldwin’s colleague Chris Cuomo, 49, tested positive for the coronavirus a few days before she revealed that she had contracted the disease
Baldwin also expressed gratitude for the “clarity” she experienced in her fight against COVID-19, explaining that isolation without the distractions of everyday life allowed her to spend more time thinking and ” feel “everything from work to family.
“When I was sick and my body stopped stridently, I stopped doing it and I really started to feel,” she said.
“I found myself thinking about joy (” Why don’t I go to the beach more often ?! “); about my work (“I would really like to create a TV series that contributes to the empowerment of women”); about my mom (“Mum, go get on this treadmill that picked up dust in your basement! I need you a lot longer.” And damn it, it finally did); and the beautiful interdependence of my marriage (“See how good it is to let him take care of you – let him do more. You don’t always have to be so damn independent and self-sufficient.”).
“In the calm of my forties, I was able to isolate my gratitude and my values more purely.”
The candid test comes just over two weeks after Baldwin first revealed that she had contracted the new virus on Instagram, just days after her colleague Chris Cuomo tested positive for COVID-19.
“I tested positive for coronavirus,” she wrote in the April 3 post. ‘I agree. It happened suddenly yesterday afternoon. Chills, body aches, fever.
“I have taken social distances. Do EVERYTHING we are told to do. However, that attracted me, “she continued. “I am in good health … No underlying condition …”
“Honestly, I feel like one of the luckiest,” she added. “I can’t wait to be back [television] and see you soon. And yell at the doctors and nurses who are doing the real work right now.