Billie Eilish and his brother Finneas argued over a song about suicide: “I felt like a facilitator”


It’s no secret that Billie Eilish has struggled with stardom. The teen star spoke in several interviews about adapting to the spotlight and his childhood dreams of being on stage.

With platinum hits, five Grammys, billions of streams and one James Bond track to her credit, she is already an accomplished artist at 18 years old.

Eilish and his brother Finneas O’Connell are a dynamic sibling duo when it comes to song creation, and they are riding the wave of success together. Sometimes the music has dark and dark nuances, but one of the things Eilish emphasizes is that she wants it to be relatable.

However, there is a song that hit a little too hard for her brother, and that caused a major fight between the siblings.

Billie Eilish and brother Finneas O'Connell
Billie Eilish and brother Finneas O’Connell | Lester Cohen / Getty Images for ASCAP

Billie Eilish angered his brother Finneas for the song “Everything
I wanted’

Many songwriters do something with experience, but when Eilish approached his brother with an idea for a new song, it upset him. “Everything I Wanted” begins with the phrase “I had a dream / I have everything I wanted” but the lyrics came from a dark place.

In an interview with The
Times UK, Eilish explained how O’Connell got angry while writing songs
when he learned that his sister was considering suicide. He didn’t want to write

“We had this big argument. Because I admitted something that
I was, uh … It wasn’t a physical thing that I admitted. I don’t know how to put
without saying it, and I don’t want to say it. But it was
confess something very serious about my depression. A very
serious step that I admitted that I intended to take. And Finneas
says, “I don’t want to write a song about you killing yourself and that’s it
you wanted.’ “

Eilish added that his parents were also involved and it turned out
in a “huge thing” that led her to lock herself in a room. She had everyone

O’Connell says he “felt like a catalyst”

Eilish shared that she really had a dream that inspired the song. She told The Times that she dreamed of jumping off a building, and she didn’t mind time. On the contrary, it was more like a fantasy. “I was in a very bad mental state,” she said.

Later, she realized the impact of the song’s lyrics on her family. While O’Connell preferred their songs to have a resolution at the end, Eilish argued that real life was not like that. It was a huge source of friction and O’Connell was extremely concerned.

“It was a time when I was really worried about my sister, and I felt like a facilitator helping her write a song as dark as this song,” he said.

“Like the musical equivalent of giving another beer to an alcoholic:” I’m not going to argue that. “Lots of songs are written in retrospect, but this one felt like it was written in real time, and I was like,” This is something we have to write on the other side of this hill. We have to live this in real life. You can’t always solve your problems in a song. ”

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It’s my mom’s birthday !!! Here is a picture of my head on my mother’s body, of mom’s head on dad’s body and so on. I never wanted to be once in my life instead of my mother’s son. His ability to be selfless throughout life, always taking care of those around him, always ensuring that the plans are right. She is a huge talent in so many things – composition, singing, comedy, improvisation, world class chef and baker, animal rescuer, the list goes on. I am inspired by my mother daily and I am nowhere where she has not encouraged and supported me. I love you mom. Unfortunately, we cannot take you to your favorite restaurant tonight or any other public space, I am lucky to spend more time with you. Happy birthday ♥ ️

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Eilish dedicated the song to his brother

“Everything I Wanted” was released in November 2019 and Rolling Stone described it as a “meditation on glory”. Eilish dedicated the song to his brother with the message, “Whatever happens, we have always been and will be there to improve it.”

Eilish was open about depression, told Vogue
she was diagnosed with adolescence. Throughout her life, she struggled
with body image, suicidal thoughts and self-harm, but told the magazine that she is
taken steps to improve his mental health. She also offered some advice.

“When people ask me
what I would say to someone looking for mental health advice, the only thing I
can say is patience. I had patience with myself. I have not taken this last step.
I waited. Things are fading. ”

How to get help: In the United States, call National suicide prevention
Safety rope
at 1-800-273-8255. Or text
HOME at 741-741 to get in touch with a qualified crisis counselor
Crisis text line.


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