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Alexandra Burke revealed that she had a panic attack after being unable to visit her mother Melissa Bell’s grave during the lockout amid the coronavirus crisis.
Speaking to Vas J Morgan for the I AM ENOUGH chat on Saturday, the 31-year-old singer explained that she had been shaken when she realized that the cemeteries were closed because they were deemed “not essential”.
In her frank discussion of the experience, Alexandra said, “Two days ago I told myself that I was going to give flowers to my mother, so I went down to the grave and it was closed.
Tough time: Alexandra Burke revealed on Saturday that she had a “major panic attack” after being unable to visit her mother’s grave during the lockout
“Major anxiety, big old panic attack in the car because I thought” how can you keep me from seeing my own mom? “And a lot of people go through it, I didn’t know it was not essential.
“I can understand that they cancel people’s marriages, etc., but I didn’t know that it was not essential, and my aunt explained to me” girl these people cannot be with others too, you can’t expect them to be open. ”
Discussing her struggle to agree not to see her mother, she continued, “It’s a way to keep people from going out and being busy and I’m totally [understand that] but I didn’t understand it at the time.
Candid: Alexandra also talked about her boyfriend’s battle with bowel cancer Angus Macdonald and admitted that she must “be her strength” during difficult times
“I had to ask my aunt to explain it to me and I said to myself ‘okay, I understand’, and I felt bad, but I was so baffled that we couldn’t do the things we wanted to do anymore , and it’s doing nice things like laying flowers for someone and seeing your friends.
“You take these things for granted and you can’t do it now, and that caused me great anxiety. “
Soul II Soul-topmaker Melissa Bell died on August 28, 2017 at the age of 53 only after a nine-year battle with kidney failure caused by diabetes.
Asked about her grief after her tragic death in 2017, Alexandra said that she threw herself into her work and tried to do things “on her behalf”, including creating the Melissa Bell Foundation to help disadvantaged young people to enter the Sylvia Young theater school.
Wrestling: Discussing not being able to see her mother’s grave, she said she had a “big panic attack in the car because I thought” how can you keep me from seeing my own mom? “”
“We gave four children a summer scholarship there, and one received a lifetime scholarship until their 18th birthday … and that is throughout my moms foundation, so what motivates me, is to try to continue what she was doing. “
Alexandra also spoke about her boyfriend Angus Macdonald’s bowel cancer battle, which he received the green light in December 2019, and admitted that she must “be his strength” during the difficult times.
“For me, the main thing that came to my mind was” I found someone I really love, and I could lose him. “And that was the hardest part for me,” she said.
“I was determined not to lose it, so I called my doctor, I just did everything I could to ask for vitamins and what he could take, and what can I do, and it became my mission.
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Honest: Of her own struggle, she said, “For me, the main thing that came to my mind was” I found someone I really love, and I could lose him “and for it was the hardest part “