CHICAGO - Songs from "MVP" echoed at the University of Illinois-Chicago on Thursday, just as they did Derrick RoseHe recently returned to the United Center as he appeared on stage inside the Dorin Forum for an intimate round table.
In preparation for the NBA Star Weekend, the Chicago native and the Detroit Pistons goaltender used his platform to normalize the conversation around mental well-being in the city, especially in black and brown.
He talked about a childhood trauma he will never forget.
"When I was younger, we had a lot of things happening in my house and in my neighborhood where I sort of had PTSD. I'll be downstairs in the basement doing something and I hear someone playing upstairs and I'm running upstairs thinking that someone was going to burst into our house about to attack my cousin ... this girl, "said Rose. "She was beating everyone in the neighborhood, like she was beating someone and I thought they were coming back for revenge. So every little knock or noise in the house, I'm afraid, or at night I hear something and be afraid because I thought these people came back. "
An emotional Rose allowed herself to appear vulnerable with candid stories like these, in which he spoke of his love for basketball, raised in the Englewood neighborhood of Chicago's south side, protecting his sanity and almost leaving the game while overcoming injuries and trades New York and Cleveland.
Despite the abandonment of Saturday's Skills Challenge due to an adductor strain, Rose still wanted to connect with Chicago because it is hosting its first All-Star event since 1988, and has organized a signature for her book "Je suis vous show ”with Bulls reporter Sam Forgeron.
“I wanted to be with my son, my children. I know it sounds crazy, I wanted to feel cold and be part of it in a way where I'm not involved in any of it, but people will feel my presence here, that's it that's it, "said Rose, who averages 18.2 points and 5.8 assists for a best career record of 49.0% for the Pistons.
"I enjoy the city, [the activities are] all propaganda, "he added. Don't get me wrong, for everyone who is part of the events, it is a great honor and a great achievement and great distinctions, but in the grand scheme of things, this is all propaganda. It's human-made, so knowing this, I feel like I have a better understanding of what I want out of certain things in life and who I'm giving and spreading like I wish. "
Rose also explained how his relationship with Chicago had improved since he left the Bulls, when he first felt that the city "had basically turned." [its] back on me "following his exchange with the Knicks in 2016.
"I think it is well repaired. I just know Chi. My vibrations were weak, ”Rose told ESPN. "When your vibrations are weak, you hear everything, you seek everything and I seek or hear everything. It was just me who was drawn to what I was feeling at the time, and it's negative, so when I changed my vibrations and matured as a person and as a man, it It was then that I started to grow and develop who I was as a person and an individual and that I was changing my character. "
Joining Rose on the stage of the #TheRightConversation panel, organized by the non-profit organization Everyone Has a Story (EHAS), was the founder and development coach of Pistons JD DuBois. Among others, Chicago barber Drew Henderson, Detroit Lions linebacker Christian Jones, Pilates Yoga instructor Adria Moses and Cindy Mori, vice president of global talent management and corporate talent development for discovery and OWN: Oprah Winfrey Network. Dr. Corey Yeager was the moderator.
Rose left the room with a message for her 16-year-old car in closing.
"I would say," watch what you pray "because when I was younger my goals were crazy, but at the same time the older I got, I was not ready for that," said Rose. "I knew I wasn’t ready for a goal like that. I wasn’t ready for a championship. I knew I wasn’t ready because I said to myself over and over like when I go out in public now, I can barely go. So what happens if I win a championship? How's it going? How would I be even more boxed? How will I live and have to move?
“I hate living with limits. It kills me when I go on vacation and I just know that people relax there as a dentist or someone with a regular job, "he said. "They are able to live life to wander freely and I'm jealous of it because I really want it, but I can't have it, so be careful what you pray for because you won't know never how it's going to happen. "